ONE MONTH BEFORE our destination wedding, I found out my fiancé was cheating on me with his boss’s daughter. Despite our relationship being in shambles, he ended his affair and we proceeded with the wedding. I spent the next three years fighting the not-so-good fight to save my marriage, which ultimately ended in March of 2021.

That ending was my greatest blessing. I’ve learned that on the other side of your fears is something unmatched, something money can’t buy. And no one else can give it to you. It’s embarking on a healing and spiritual journey. It’s finally choosing yourself and healing the deepest parts of your being. It’s becoming the greatest version of yourself you can be.

This book started as a journal to help me heal. But then I realized that everyone is fighting their own battles and doing their best, and that sharing my story could help someone else feel less alone on their journey or inspire them to embark on their own healing journey. Connection is a beautiful privilege, and if I can help someone else make the greatest comeback of all time, that’s all I can hope for. 

At thirty-two years old, I never imagined my life would look the way it does, but there’s something beautiful about being on a journey you never thought you’d be on.

I am in love. I am

I am ignoring red flags.

I am engaged.

I am being cheated on.

I am getting married.

I am not sure who I am anymore.

I am in therapy.

I am calling it quits.

I am free.

I am in love. I am I am ignoring red flags. I am engaged. I am being cheated on. I am getting married. I am not sure who I am anymore. I am in therapy. I am calling it quits. I am free.

For the girl who wanted to be loved by a man that could never love her the way she deserved.

For the girl who lost herself in the relationship or marriage.

For the girl who finally chooses herself and her healing.

For the girl who realizes she has and always will be enough.

4.8 Star Reviews on Good Reads

Reviews

  • Loved this book. The author is so relatable and speaks from the heart. Such an easy heartfelt read…could not put it down! Her story is so inspiring. A perfect example of the power of a woman!! ✨✨

    Jennifer L.

  • This book definitely puts a new perspective into your life! Worth the read 10x over!

    Kerrie G.

  • If you are going through, in the midst of or at the end of a challenging relationship- this book is for you. It is such an easy, smooth and touching book. You can feel exactly what the author was feeling in those moments!

    Jessica B.

Amazon Review

“This book healed a part of me that I didn’t know was broken and I think it will be the same for everyone who reads it. This book starts with navigating heartbreak and failure and moves into healing and becoming the best version of yourself. You get to see what can go on behind closed doors of a seemingly picture perfect relationship. The author walks the reader through the rollercoaster that was her life, cheating, masking, people pleasing etc. and how she hit rock bottom and there was no where but up. I *know* this book will be relatable to everyone who reads it in one way or another. The interactive journaling at the end was such an awesome surprise too. 10/10 must read especially for anyone in toxic relationships - I know it’ll change their life.”

Jennifer L. Review

“Well I just have to say that I just received my book today and I have already read through it entirely.. cover to cover. There are so many gems in here. So well written, so insightful and spiritually connected. While I do relate to everything that was experienced in the book, I believe even if you do not personally relate, this book will resonate with you. It’s just that good. Thank you Marissa for writing such an amazing book that I know is going to help and empower so many women (people). I am so inspired to get on my own spiritual healing journey. 💕”

Reviews

  • Reading such a raw and vulnerable experience and seeing how amazing the comeback was. Shows that even when you hit rock bottom you can come back stronger. A must read!

    Lisa T.

  • Just read the whole thing. I really admire this story of strength and hope. The importance of recognizing gaslighting and lovebombing for what it is... what it means to lose yourself and get yourself back.. the importance of a support network. Humility, hope and courage. Great job marissa

    CC

  • Such an easy read on how someone can take a truly awful situation and turn it into a beautiful healing journey that not only helps themselves but others! Truly inspiring and amazing!

    Kaitlyn D.